I am loved

While it's true that Dave & I have been married over 27 years, in many respects, I feel like a newlywed. He just left to work at the shop and I already miss him! He won't be here with me all day ~ and I won't be with him. His 'good-bye' kiss still sends a shiver down my spine. Truth be told, any kiss of his sends a shiver down my spine!

It's fun to know that we still make each other laugh. Not the same old jokes, but just stuff we say or do (for some reason, more on my part than his), will bring a shake of the head and laugh. I'll tell him he's weird & he'll say he married into it. I guess that's fair enough. I love to laugh with him!

As he was taking me to work yesterday, I told him about a few customers who had come in. Some are asking my name before they leave. Some come in and remember that I helped them. I'm learning a few customers' names. He remarked that this is exactly what he had been hoping the job would provide ~ an opportunity for me to be with people, have a job that is enjoyable & provides variety, not stressful at all. Then he said something that really blessed me. He said it's a job for me, that I don't have to work, and while the extra income is nice, that's not why I am working. It dawned on me that, yes, my paycheck will go to help pay bills, I don't have to work. If I really wanted to, I could say I wanted to stay home & do craft things, keep the house in order (OK, maybe not), etc. & it would be OK with him. But, he knows I'd get bored.

I am so grateful for his gift and how he loves me. His love gives me the freedom to be 'Deb' while still being 'Mrs. David Hash', to be creative, silly, crazy, passionate or whatever. I know that there are aspects of my personality that irritate and frustrate him, but he has chosen to focus on what he enjoys and to build me up rather than tear me down. He loves me not with a blind love, but with the eye of a long time friend & lover who sees & knows me for who I really am. He doesn't ignore the faults, he just doesn't shine a spot light on them. He will quietly encourage me to change what is negative or could be improved ~ never in public or in an embarrassing way.

Dave models Yeshua to me. He loves me so completely. So wonderfully. I am deeply grateful to know that I am truly loved by him & it only makes me want to love him more. I delight in his love and can only image how wonderful it will be when I enter into my Savior's love in eternity.